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|Monday, March 25th, 2013|
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|Thursday, December 15th, 2011|
I haven't been here in three years...
Last entry was me going to England in Sep 2008.
After there I went down to about 125 (from 150) and everything was going perfectly.
I was awesome for about a year, then I fell in love with a girl and got really depressed and started binging again. Now I'm up to 160.
Does anyone get on anymore?
It's so strange, I was on 43things and here since I was like 14, and now I'm almost 21 and in the same place as I was then. Things don't seem to change much.
I'd love to start a fast or some sort of program with someone!
|Thursday, March 10th, 2011|
looking for support
Well... I guess I'm back...
I'm Chelsey, 21 soon, from Manchester, I'm a single parent to my 2 1/2 year old daughter, Im currently at university studying Nursing.
I was recovered after suffering with bulimia for from the age of 12. I have recently started binging and therefore purging as well I've had a real hard couple of years and these past 5 months have meant I've been binging and purging again. I don't want to be WEAK! I want to be restrictive and not loose control and "binging" I'm sick to death of it. I need support people! so helllp meeeee :( im pathetic arent I haha! does anyone have a bbm or is anyone on 02 so i can text when im doing shit! or email... what ever i need a buddy!
|Saturday, December 18th, 2010|
What happened to everyone? :(
|Wednesday, March 3rd, 2010|
|Thursday, February 25th, 2010|
|Saturday, January 16th, 2010|
No one is left here...
I miss my old friends...
It's been a very very long time.
My life has changed so much, as I'm sure all of yours have. I doubt any of you will read this. Everyone gets busy and we all lost touch, some may have recovered. I feel with an eating disorder though it never goes away. You may be "recovered" but you will never be "cured". Ana is always with you, always reminding you, even if you think she has forgotten about you, she hasn't and she will return to you in some way. And guess what.. my bestfriend is back. I've been excited, thinking about what I would write in my head, I knew that no had been on here in a long time as I checked every once and a while, but I needed some where to write my thoughts and feelings where I felt comfortable, where people accepted me and didn't take me as a "wanna" or "noob". I wanted to go where I had always gone. I'm sad that it's not the same, I'm sad the people I confided in are no longer around.
I guess the one thing that always has and always will remain constant in my life is Ana. I feel like I'm stronger than ever, that I can do anything. I could feel her creeping in the past few months and then without warning she stormed back into my life screaming... "WHO ARE YOU?!?! WHAT HAVE YOU DONE?!?! YOU ARE NOT YOU! YOU ARE NOTHING WITHOUT ME!!! I AM THE ONLY PERSON YOU CAN COUNT ON!!! I AM THE ONLY WAY TO PIECE YOUR LIFE BACK TOGETHER!!! I will help you... You can trust me... Love, your bestfriend Ana"
What people don't understand is ANA is a person to me. She is not ANOREXIA... she is ANA my friend... ANA IS ME. She is in my mind and I listen to her and become her... her puppet if you will. Anorexia is not a "diet" and "fad" it is a DISEASE. A MENTAL ILLNESS.
When I don't know who I am anymore I become Ana... she takes over my life and I become her... finally becoming someone... anyone... It's like someone is possessing your body, but in a good way... It's strange having been on the outside looking in and now I understand. I understand, but it will never change and I don't want it to.
I'm finally happy again :)
I am Ana... I am strong. I stand up for myself, I tell people no, I have control. When you become one with Ana you become a new person... I have energy again, I'm rejuvenated.
Miss you sisters... Starve on :)
|Tuesday, September 8th, 2009|
|Monday, July 27th, 2009|
just drank a liter of ice water , painted my nails, trying to keep busy...bored out of my mind Current Mood: bored
DAY 1 of 1
so i have an interview in one week from today and i do Not want to be a fat cow walking in....i need to be skinny so I'm gonna try and do a 50 day fast i know it sounds exreme but on of my friends on myspace did it!!! and she lost so much weight plus being on my own i don't have to eat... i just won't buy any food.... wish me luck any one want to join more than welcome...i am going to create a new myspace account here pretty soon if anyone has a myspace let me know your address so i can add you THNKS LADIES stay skinny be strong! LUVS** Current Mood: busy
|Sunday, July 26th, 2009|
...haven't been on here in forever and usually i am on my myspace account but i had to delete it since i was applying for jobs and they asked if they could look at it on my application...weird huh?...but i moved into my apartment earlier then i thought and i really want to get back on track i'm all by myself and i have no excuses not to be strong! so i am starting a fast tomorrow of how ever many days i can make it!!! i applied at all these clothing stores dwntown so i have to be skinny or else they wont hire me !!! let me know how you all are doing!!! luvs!** Current Mood: content
|Tuesday, July 7th, 2009|
i havent been here in what? like almost a year?! i decided to leave because of many reasons, one was school and i was very busy.
ive read some entries and i can tell some old people left and came back, which is a good thing:) i notice alot of new members as well
and for you that dont know me, im lover_ana nice to meet you:) just so you all know, the 3 day diet has worked wonders for me..lately
ive been eating whatever i want and b4 this year started, i was out of cross country...my coach kicked me out and told me i was negativity
to the whole team..HA! whatever, i decided to come back because you girls became a part of me and i thank you for all the support you
gave me..im going to start keeping you guys updated and i hope that by the end of the summer ive lost weight,, and tons of it:)
right now ima read some entries and try to comment as much as i can:)
oh and just a quick update..remember i told you all about that guy on myspace that i met and stuff? well...its been a year and still counting:)<33
love you all!!
|Saturday, May 16th, 2009|
Hey girls! i just wanted to let you all know that the new comm is up and running! please join and pimp! starving_angels
It's been a SUPER long time since I've posted to LJ. So for a quick catch up:
My Stats As Of Now:
Height: 5’5” 3/4
Lowest Weight: 93 lbs
Highest Weight: 124 lbs
Current Weight: 101.6 lbs
Goal Weight: 75 – 80 lbs
I now have a certain routine that I do EVERYDAY. I wake up, weigh in, and do 50 crunches to start my Metabolism for the day. I drink an 8 oz glass of natural juice (Either Tropicana OJ or Juicy Juice) with mulitvitamins, a mug of Decaffeinated Coffee with Splenda, and drink 8-10 bottles of 16.9 oz of water every day. I eat ONLY 1 meal a day which consists of a salad. It consists of Romaine Lettuce, Sunflower Kernals, Croutons, a pinch of Parmesean Cheese, and Caesar Dressing. Current Mood: hopeful
Around 5p.m., I go for a 45 minute walk. Very Peaceful! I do lots of exercises everyday. At the end of each shower, I do Waist Twists, Side Bends, Squats, and Leg Lifts.
I do lots of word puzzles and am on the computer 75% of my day. It's very Relaxing for me!
I try to get at least 6-8 hours of sleep a night. Sometimes, if I'm really drained and have nothing to do, I sneak in a nap, but my friends keep me busy, as well as my pets!
This is my new routine. I'm doing EXTREMELY well! I hope everyone is doing wonderful also with achieving their goal! If anyone needs any support, help, or advice, I would love to help! I could use some myself at times! :o) You can never have enough advice or tips!
Please leave me a comment on how you are doing my Loves!
I love you all!
|Tuesday, April 28th, 2009|
I haven't posted here in months.
Long story short, I got sent to rehab. Blah blah blah, all that good stuff.
For the first time ever, I felt like my life was getting back on track.
But I've been slipping lately, and I know that falling back into this is inevitable.
I might as well embrace it.
I don't know if anyone remembers me..
buuutt I'm noticing a lot of familiar faces.
To this day, I can't help but miss 43 things.
That place was my home, the girls on that forum were not only my support, but my friends.
I hate that I lost contact with all of them. :(
|Friday, April 10th, 2009|
Omgosh, I swear I haven't been on here in like, a whole year!
So basically, am back on this site because I've gained SO MUCH WEIGHT.
It's sick. Here's my stats:
HW: 143 lbs
LW: 94 lbs
CW: 143 lbs
GW: 100 lbs
So, as you can see, I am now at the highest weight I have ever been. In the past year I've gained nearly 50 pounds.
Thinking about it statistically makes it seem so disgusting and pathetic - and I don't want to be either of those! The big wake up for me happened a couple of days ago when my friend referred to me as curvy. Curvy! I don't think I've ever been called curvy in my entire life - it was HORRIBLE!
I want to be skinny so bad - except this time, I have to be sneakier than ever. I don't want a repeat performance of last year........and anyway, it's only going to get easier - I'm going to university next year and then I'll have no family constantly looking at what I eat. It'll be great.
Wish me luck!
|Saturday, March 28th, 2009|
okay so after i put on 6,6 lbs in germany... came back.. put on 4 more pounds
than i've been up and down up and down.... till wednesday...when i decided at 6pm to start a fast.......
bc i ate before and stuffs, i lost less than a pound to the next day... but from thurday to friday i lost 4,4 pounds!!!!
imagine!!! 4,4 just in a day... and at friday... i did bad.. i broke the fast... i could have lost so much more weight... but i'm a dumbass
anyways... ate chocolate.. purged most of it..
went out with my best friend.... i had nothing to woorry about, bc she is dieting..
but she said the words.... : hey we haven't eaten anything... do u want to eat ice-cream???
i was shoked! but i won't lie... i wanted to... so i ate an ice-cream...
and today the scale... i was expecting like 2 pounds more.... but no.. i actually didn't put on anything yayyyyyyyyyy
after i ate that ice-cream i decided to start another fast...
is 5.30pm and i'm almost a pound lighter than this morning wuhuuuu
i'll keep fasting till tuesday... i have to eat somting that day or i'll pass out in volleyball, our training is really really hard and exhausting
wish me luck girls...
next saturday is my b-day and i want to lose at least 4 pounds by then :D:D
luv yaaa :D
|Wednesday, March 25th, 2009|